Nastatia Nietzsche

I can wake in the morning with the voice of a distant Angel ringing in my ears
Shoehorning myself back into this body, into this lodestone for the material realm
The music begins to fade with my first can of Red Bull
and no matter how good I might have been feeling
Every positive emotion runs screaming for the Exits
The moment I step back into this Physical Matrix
and all the Best Memories of my time here on Earth
Come rushing back to haunt me for the rest of my waking hours.....

Your Friend and Mentor, Syd Nietzsche Jabari

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One of the greatest love stories isn’t about a man and his wife but, about a man and his buddy.
This story includes two characters who had a deep and abiding love for one another, who shared an incredible
(and almost impossible to come by) emotional intimacy with each other. Jabari and Nastatia loved each other, and I know Jabari cries today,
Although I didn’t have the privilege to spend a lot of time with Nastatia, the conversations we did have were deep and meaningful.
She was a very insightful and wise young woman. Sadly, it is life experience that brings us to wisdom and most often it doesn’t accompany
itself with joy but with challenge and hardship. It is in learning to face life’s injustice (without ego)
and our fears (with courage) that we find true peace in this life.
I believe Nastatia learned this lesson through the direct mentoring of Jabari and the unconditional love from Marilyn.
She grew, she matured and she leaves us better people for having known her, if only for a moment.
Karen

I copy the message below that Nastatia sent me on Friday, April 25th-2008,
which at the time took MY breath away, considering these were the words of a 22 year old woman.
I remember thinking, “Wow, I was NOTHING like that when I was 22."
It has taken me 48 years to learn what Nastatia knew at 22.
Nastatia was a beautiful soul!

Hello Karen,
I completely understand the pain, and I can attest that it is a teacher. We are all animals, we experience pain,
we do what we have to do to remove ourselves from the pain, except sometimes that comes in the form of escaping the pain
through any type of drug be it narcotics, other people, religions, movies, music, working out, there are many ways. Then there is denial,
eventually it doesn't work anymore. The only way to overcome the pain is stare it directly in the face, as hard and as painful as it may be.
I've had times where it was hard to breath, and other times were I just wanted to stop breathing all together. I've had times where I've cried and cried,
you can ask Jabari, I haven't always been as nice or as sensitive or as smart or whatever positive values people think I have. I was one depressed,
tired, lethargic, uneducated, immature, dead weight when Jabari met me. Through a lot of work, I mean, a lot,
I've known & lived with him nonstop for five years, and I don't have much fun. I don't travel much or have a very social life.
I never wanted to do many things because my family was poor and doing things meant spending money, and if you wanted something
you either weren't going to get it, or you wouldn't eat at some point down the road.
He did a lot of work, he said he would die for me, and maybe he has in some ways, he & I know I wasn't the best person at times,
and I definitely didn't treat Jabari very well. Things are going well Now, at least I don't run away from the pain when I realize
I have done something neglectful or hurtful. I've hit this block though where it's just not working anymore,
I have memories that I've talked & cried to Jabari about, but they're not going away, and I'm becoming less receptive to his mentoring.
The most important thing I can tell you is that you WILL fail. You will want to be all these things, a giver, not a taker,
someone who listens, creates a two-way street, and you will fail at some point, and you might not ever realize it, and if you do realize it,
it will hurt like hell, you'll want to just give up, but don't.
I've done the same things over and over, hurt people in the same way over and over, hurt myself in the same way over and over after I told myself
I will not do it again and I will be a better person. I've asked myself and the people around me, why are you even here, how can you love me,
how can you look at me or touch me, but if I gave up, my birth parents would win, my abusers would win,
all the things negative that I want to overcome would win if I gave up. I used to be a compulsive liar,
I once told Jabari I could do twenty chin-ups because I thought he would think more of me. What does that say about me, worse yet,
how does that reflect on him. How does he feel when he learns that I think his values are that messed up? He will never give up though.
Thanks for the information on the journey you have been going through, I appreciate your time this morning.
Attached is the calendar for our San Diego Trip.
Thanks Karen

Nastatia Nietzsche

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I first met Nastatia in January 2009 as part of my MATREX team. She was a great girl, full of ambition.
I really came to appreciate her though when she joined the Training team later that year.
She had such a can-do attitude, and was always willing to take on extra work to help the team out.
I remember a project she managed in the middle of 2010 where she was working with some bosses 3 levels up and she was positively FEARLESS!
She’d crack the whip on them the same as the rest of us. I also remember her stopping by my desk many an evening nagging me to go home,
not to work to hard. She really cared about the people around her.

I wish I had the words to express how much Nastatia will be sorely missed... My thoughts are with you in this time of grief.

Sarah Gateley

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I was, and still am a friend of Nastatia.
I knew her and respected her since the first time we met.
People ask me what I liked about her, that's hard to say, I liked everything about her.
What I liked most, was her honest zeal for life, every time I saw her, my day was brighter and more pleasant.
Nastatia always had that bright eyed inquisitive look on that beautiful face,
like that of a child opening presents on Christmas day, seeing her was always my Present.
My fondest memory of Nastatia was during one of our many Boxing Training Sessions.
I had been driving the point home for weeks,
"NEVER EVER LET YOUR GUARD DOWN"
"You do not want to end up like the Woman in the Movie"
"Million Dollar Baby"
During one of these many sessions, I had said keep your gaurd up,
then I proceeded to turn away to say something to Jabari.
At which point I felt my jaw crack.
As I turned to look at Nastatia,
She said, Looking straight into my eyes with a smile,
"Practice what you preach Coach!"
Nastatia is gone now, but she is not forgotten, and I will see you again.
This old Fighter looks forward to that time when you get to make my day brighter and better,
just like you did when you were here with us.

I Love You Nastatia

Your Boxing Coach and Friend, Wayne

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In my life I have many acquaintances, and very few true friends. Maybe I am a bit “old school”
but family is given respect and all others are forced to earn it. When Jabari and Marilyn
introduced me to Nastatia years ago as a new member of the family. I must admit I was a bit apprehensive.
Jabari told me she was a good kid and that there was a great person in there to be found.
So respect was given on that basis. Over the years no respect was given, it was ALL earned.
She was so eager to learn and experience life to the fullest!
I would get calls asking about computers and web pages, photography, travel, shooting, and many other subjects.
I was happy to share my experience with her,
not knowing that I would soon be calling for her expertise in those areas a short time later.
I only wish I had the drive and desire to learn and live as she did.
I’ll never forget showing her the DJ booth at work and how interested she was in learning what I was doing,
and the smile on her face when she saw her favorite video "Just Be" playing in the club.
As I scan through the most memorable moments in my life, Nastatia was there for many of them.
Most recently the 2011 World Series Game One.
When I managed to get tickets to the World Series I immediately called Jabari to go to the game.
He told me to please take Nastatia to the game, I said are you sure??? She does not even like baseball?
I knew from the first run the Cardinals scored and the Hi-5 we exchanged that she was the right choice to be with at that historic event.
St. Louis and the world will never forget the miraculous run the Cardinals had in 2011!
I will never forget that night and the special person I was able to share it with.
We celebrated the whole night and the Cardinals started a historic World Series with a win!
There are few individuals in this world that inspire all they come in contact with.
Nastatia was one of those people.
No one is ever gone unless they are forgotten. Nastatia you will always be remembered and missed dearly.
Until we meet again,

John DeBellis

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Nastatia, The world lost a sweet and caring woman the day you departed us.
As our years growing up together I wish we would of been closer friends but I think as we grew older and matured we made up for it.
I will never forget your kindness, I know that I could have counted on you for anything.
When I had a ten page College term paper due and my computer decided to crash..there you were to my rescue!
And you and Jabari even offered to give me a new one, I will never forget your wonderful thoughtfulness!
When I worked in the office at Goose Creek you would stop by to talk and always told me to stay in school and how great of a teacher I would be.
And that really meant alot.

You have taught me a life lesson that I will soon never forget,
I saw you just a few days before you left this Earth at a gas station. You and Jabari had been riding and were taking a break drinking Red Bulls,
I was in a hurry and I didn't get out of my car to say hi.
I can't get that image out of my head that I could of taken the time out of my busy day to speak to a friend.
I now am slowing down and making my friends and loved ones know how much they mean to me.
Love Always, Your friend Kristina (Black) Lambert

Life is full of ups and downs...
wherever we may go.
Friends are friends until the end...
and this we truly know.
We ban together like a pride...
as a family, we are one.
We vow respect to one and all...
until the day is done.
We try to learn from our mistakes...
and teach what we have learned.
Friends are found most everyday...
but respect is surely earned.
When the rude and crude appear...
do not take it to heart.
Simply show your kindness...
cause that is where it starts.

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Tiger Babe,

I was inspired by the messages you received. People really love you… I’m not surprised, since I am one of them. You deserve that.
My dad said that the world lost a beautiful and sweet soul, projected in crystal blue eyes. I lost that and one of the best friends I ever had.
I wish we could have more time, but I can’t complain much. We spoke a lot, and had wonderful conversations that I’ll remember forever.
I’m glad most of them I can read again whenever I want.
I believe you read and listen to enough words and thoughts from me to know me like only a few people do
(maybe a little more than you would cherish, I guess, hehe), and I hope the otherwise is also true.
You were one of the best listeners I ever met, and your replies only brought me wisdom, joy and peace.
But none of the words I said were suitable for this situation. I never said my last words to you.
I never thought the goodbye would ever come. It doesn’t have to.

I think you had enough words, so I’ll send you a song.
It was inspired when we visit the beach Sunday, January 17-2010.
You never listened to it, mainly because every time I had you and a guitar around something else would pop up, like Kansas or The Eagles.
I think this is my fault. Nevertheless I made it for you,
I want you to have it and I hope you can listen to it whenever I have a chance to play it again, wherever you are....

Blue ocean dunes / Green trees landscape
Following the yellow shores / And white waves

Painting the sea / Framed by the reefs
Coloring all between / All that exists

Under the stars / Everywhere the sun can see
You're not too far / Come and go away with me

We don't need to wait / All I ask is babe please
You have my faith / Can you just believe

Time goes by / So do we
But I'll stay / Waiting here

'Cause alone / It's not the same
I'll will need a friend to hold my hand / As the time goes away

We'll walk the earth / Just like the wind
Cold waters burn / The fire within us

Dance with my board / Fly without wings
Night comes with our guitar / So we can sing

Under the stars / Everywhere the sun can see
You're not too far / Come and go away with me

We don't need to wait / All I ask is babe please
You have my faith / Can you just believe

Time goes by / So do we
But I'll stay / waiting here

'Cause alone / It's not the same
I'll will need a friend to hold my hand / As the time goes away

Nastatia I hope you like it...

I miss you since I met you, now even more, and I’ll remember you long after my memory, heart and life are gone. We’ll meet again.

Your dear friend, Agent Wolf (Gustavo), in Brasil

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Greetings Nastatia;

I never met you but I understand that you were an avid reader of my blogs.
I seem to remember that we might have exchanged emails on occasion but my memory is not what it should be.
Reading the comments left by those who knew you was a moving experience for me.
There is no greater testimony for a person's life than the telling commentary of friends and associates.
In this regard you have succeeded more than most people ever shall and in such a short time.
My heart goes out to those who must suffer your absence for I know that one such as you is in a wonderful place
and the last thing you would want is for people to be grieving but that is understandable.
It is for those who remain to suffer your loss. You, yourself have no loss to suffer,
for I am sure you have achieved a union presently denied to almost all of us here.
It is my deep regret that I did not get to know you better but it is a greater comfort that others did.
Your beauty shines through the words of those who loved you. The divine often takes the best of us away early.
It is as if what we could accomplish here was done and we needed to go to leave the example of what we were for those who remain.
It is impossible to know the mind of the divine but I am convinced of the mercy and compassion inherent within it
and that for reasons presently unknown to us there was a very good reason for you to go, though we may find it impossible to accept.
I hope to learn more about you with the passing of time and I feel certain that I shall.
I pray that the ineffable embrace you in the combined spirit of all those who now seek to empty their hearts of what you meant to them.
God's love seems to have surely shined through you so it is to be expected that it now shines upon you.

Love, Les Visible, in Europe

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Fabio(5:41:10 PM): what?
Nastatia(5:41:21 PM): what what?
Fabio(5:41:27 PM): what what what?
Nastatia(5:41:34 PM): what?
Fabio(5:41:50 PM): w _ ?
Nastatia(5:42:19 PM): %hat?

This is how I'll always remember you. Anytime we would talk, chat, email or anything we would start it off with a prank.
That would also happen whenever you would come here to see us. Only people who had a chance to know you will understand. I will miss you much.
You know, I can even remember the first time we met.It was in September, 2008.
On a Friday morning we had a meeting with Marilyn and then we invited her for lunch. And thankfully she took you with her..
I never told you this, but I was scarred of you that day. You were so quiet.
Then, it came the day when I went to your lake house, that was back in October, 2008.
It was Brume and I.. remember? Again, I was pretty scarred of you (yeah, I was stupid.. I know.)..
You talked a bit with us and then went riding with Jabari.. That was a pretty cool day and you had a brand new house.
We finally started talking like we should when you snuck in Marilyn's baggage and showed up here in Brasil..
That was pretty cool! We had a great time, right? But certainly not as cool as the last time you came.. On vacation..
That was a lot of fun!! That was when you finally learned that you had to order stuff that "Não contém glutén"..
And what about that barbecue.. last day, wasn't it? Pretty funny..
I really hate that you had to go... I'll keep my head up and I'll see you when I see you... Then we'll...

Fabio(5:41:10 PM): what?
Nastatia(5:41:21 PM): what what?
Fabio(5:41:27 PM): what what what?
Nastatia(5:41:34 PM): what?
Fabio(5:41:50 PM): w _ ?
Nastatia(5:42:19 PM): %hat?

Fabio, in Brasil

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Tash,
I LOVE YOU. You were a true life-long friend. Sometimes maybe a year had passed,
but we could always start off as if we talked last week. I think this is what truely bothers me,
I neglected your time here on earth. I really wish I would've spent more time catching up with you.
I thought you would always be here. I was wrong. I'm happy to know you were doing something you truely love when you lost your life,
and that is the only thing that can keep me sane. You lived your life to the fullest, doing things most would only dream of in their life.
You turned your dreams into challenges and goals. I hate that another beautiful person has been taken from me.
You will always be in my heart, and never forgotten.
Till we meet again your friend,

Kim

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To my beloved sister.... Nastatia.... we knew one another for a brief six months....however in this last half of a year you have touched my
life more than most of the people I have known in a lifetime. I have fond memories of riding with you and of course our constant horseplay while
rebuilding our bikes from my numerous mistakes. You were the one person I could call and would talk me through the hardest times of my life.
You are my HERO.
I never had the chance to tell you how I truly felt about you so I will take the time to do that now. You meant more to me than you could have ever
imagined. I loved you with all my heart. I Have never met a woman who could keep up with me until I met you. Between all the hard times we used to
give each other and the merciless jokes and gags. I will never forget the look on your face when I hit your killswitch leaving Briarwood for a ride.
Nor will I forget your adorable smile and uplifting laugh. I will miss watching your big butt in front of me while we rode and giving you a hard time
every chance I got just so you would throw it back in my face for a good laugh. I will keep you in my memory until the day we meet again. I swear
to keep you alive in my thoughts forever. My cbr....your first 1000rr... has been renamed appropriately. I will cherish it for a lifetime. I will not
stop riding for I believe that would not be what you would want. I will miss you horribly. I will ride in your honor and I will ride like you....Smart
...Safe...Responsibly. I never got the chance to say my goodbyes to you..... I do not believe in the word Goodbye so I say this......
I Love You Nastatia... I'll see you later babe.... and when we meet again you better be wearing your jacket and helmet and have your back tire warmed
up ready to go for a cruise.

Forever Your crazy little brother, Cory

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January of this year I had asked Nastatia to become my mentor for CDT WorX.
She used to be in MATREX program as I was in now and seeing how much of a leader she was here at AT&T
I thought she would be a great person to go to for questions or anything about the company. She didn't decline, so I thought that was cool.
Since then, we had become great friends. We met monthly for our 1-on-1 either by Q instant messenger.
if we were both too busy to leave our desks or meeting for lunch. I learned real quickly that she was someone you could talk to and depend on.
More recently, Nastatia was the United Way Campaign rep for the Moor organization here at AT&T and she assisted me with my fundraiser event of
Penny Wars. We had grown so close in the last 2 months, either with counting change by hand for a few hours, which seemed like an eternity...lol...
or even going to the bank to exchange the change for bills in the final days, which we found to be a more effective way to count over 50,000
coins...lol... We were both so excited to find that the Penny Wars had raised almost $700 for United Way. She made the suggestion to give the
winning team a jumbo sized Penny, which I thought was hilarious, for their efforts as well as a pizza party.
I think she always wanted to make sure that everyone be recognized and rewarded for their efforts.
She did a great job a rep for United Way and even better job being an awesome co-worker, mentor, and friend.
I am deeply saddened to hear that she is gone.
Nastatia - thank you for being a great person to get to know over the past year. You were definitely taken away from us too soon.
My condolences go out to your family and friends. You will be missed.

Candace M. Harris (co-worker and friend)
AT&T Services, Inc

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My Niece
A Child Loaned
"I'll lend you for a little time
A child of Mine." He said.
"For you to love the while she lives
And mourn for when she's dead.
It may be six or seven year
Or twenty-two or three
But will you, till I call her back
Take care of her for Me?
She'll bring her charms to gladden you
And should her stay be brief,
You'll have her lovely memories
As solace for your grief.

I cannot promise she will stay
Since all from Earth return,
But there are lessons taught down there
I want the child to learn.
I've looked this wide world over
In my search for teacher's true,
And from the throngs that crowd life's lanes,
I have selected you;
Now will you give her all your love,
Nor think the labor vain
Nor hate Me when I come to call
And take her back again?

I fancied that I heard them say,
"Dear Lord, They will be done,
For all the joy Thy child shall bring,
For the risk of grief we'll run.
We'll shelter her with tenderness,
We'll love her while we may,
And for the happiness we've known,
Forever grateful stay.
But should the angels call for her
Much sooner than we planned,
We'll brave the bitter grief that comes
And try to understand."

What a wonderful job Jabari and Marilyn did with the angel God loaned them. They will see her again. Praise God!
Stash...I thank you for the honor of being called your "uncle" and for showing all of us how to enjoy our time to the fullest.

"Uncle" Leland

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I met Nastatia on one of the those beautiful days in San Francisco.
Where the sky is blue and there's a chill in the air.
Marilyn, Nastatia and I would be attending the 2005 IBM IMS conference.
Actually, at that point it was just Marilyn and I, Nastatia would be hanging out...
While we attend the conference But that story will follow.
I met them at their hotel in San Francisco.
I would be taking them on a tour of the city, and then off to San Jose to the IBM IMS Conference.
We did most of the thinks tourist do.
Our final stop being The Cliff House at Lands End.
We would have an early dinner.
Nastatia wanted to throw a rock she had bought from Saint Louis in the Pacific Ocean.

When we got to the Cliff House.
I thought I had mentioned that the water was cold, that the Coast Guard was constantly rescuing people from the surf,
that there was an under tow, and again that the water was COLD.
You can imagine my shock when I see Nastatia come out of the ladies bathroom.
She had changed into to her swimming suit.
The most beautiful smile on her face because she was going to go swimming in the Pacific Ocean.
We headed to the beach. Nastatia in her swim suit, I in my long pants, heavy sweater and down jacket.
All I I remember from being at the beach was that I kept mentioning the rip tide and how COLD it was...
and Nastatia just kept smiling and waving from the water.
I knew then, that this was going to be one great week at the IBM IMS conference, and how special a person Nastatia was...

Clara Delgado, IBM, in San Francisco

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Death is nothing at all
I have only slipped away into the next room
I am I and you are you
Whatever we were to each other
That we are still
Call me by my old familiar name
Speak to me in the easy way you always used
Put no difference into your tone
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow
Laugh as we always laughed
At the little jokes we always enjoyed together
Play, smile, think of me, pray for me
Let my name be ever the household word that it always was
Let it be spoken without effort
Without the ghost of a shadow in it
Life means all that it ever meant
It is the same as it ever was
There is absolute unbroken continuity
What is death but a negligible accident?
Why should I be out of mind
Because I am out of sight?
I am waiting for you for an interval
Somewhere very near
Just around the corner
All is well
Nothing is past; nothing is lost
One brief moment and all will be as it was before
How we shall laugh at the trouble of parting when we meet again!

Canon Henry Scott-Holland, 1847-1918, Canon of St Paul's Cathedral

Uncle Bruce

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Your beliefs become your thoughts,
Your thoughts become your words,
Your words become your actions,
Your actions become your habits,
Your habits become your values,
Your values become your Destiny.

Nastatia Nietzsche / Mahatma Gandhi

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I know we only met once, but I am really glad I got to meet you.
You are an AMAZING woman.
You did things that most of us only dream about.
It is an honor for me to have gotten to tattoo you.
You will be greatly missed by many.

Ashley Western
Rock-A-Billy Tattoos & Piercings

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Those we love don't go away
They walk beside us everyday
Unseen, unheard, but always near
still loved, still missed, and very dear

Vanessa, Gustavo, Marcello, Eduardo, Rodrigo, Ellen, Renato, Tatiane, Cristiane, Karina, Ana, Diego, Olimpio, Fabio & Valter, in Brasil

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Tasha
This is hard for me to put into words. I’m reluctant to post this message because I’m not only sad I’m also angry.
I’m angry at myself and with the world in general. I’m angry I was unable to reconnect with you after you left your family when you turned 17.

I have many memories of our time together. I still hear the curiosity in the first words I heard you speak.
I will never forget the way you moved always on your toes as if on a mission. I got to see your love for cats as well as nature itself.
I will never forget the ice storm that isolated us for a few weeks. We survived on squirrels until we ran out of bullets.
Then I went on a hike to gets us frozen food from 7-11 to last until we could get the car out.

I say this because after my accident and I became paralyzed, in return you never hesitated to help me when most kids would shy away at the sight of me.
It was never any doubt to anyone that met you that you were a very smart and special person.
I know you are in a better place now. I just have so many questions I will never get the answers to and that drives my anger.
I feel I’m selfish to feel like you were stolen from us far too soon and as I held out hope to catch up with the adult Tasha It was not meant to be.

As I read these notes and see these quotes in another attempt to know the women that you grew into.
I see Nastatia Nietzsche a women wise beyond her years, just beginning to reap the rewards of your hard work and the talent God gave you.
That makes me smile.
I also am reminded that you had so much more to learn and see.
I used to believed as a healthy human being I could do anything that any other human could do. All it would take is hard work.

“Believe me! The secret of reaping the greatest fruitfulness and the greatest enjoyment from life is to live dangerously!”
Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche
When I hear that you died doing what you loved I cant help but think of this and it hurts because I know How rare this happens.

Most have to live with the results of this philosophy.
“The sick man is a parasite of society. In certain cases it is indecent to go on living.
To continue to vegetate in a state of cowardly dependence upon doctors and special treatments,
once the meaning of life, the right to life has been lost, ought to be regarded with the greatest contempt by society.”
Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche

I am left to imagine what we could have learned from each other had we been blessed with the chance.
I cry and smile at the thought. I am here to ponder various philosophies.
You have all the answers.

R.I.P. Nastatia

Your cousin, Brian

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What would change the world quicker than anything else?
I would say this, it would change overnight if we did this,
because everything would come from it.
If we stopped making decisions about our actions based on what is right for us in the moment,
and started doing what we knew to be right by conscience and justice, this world would transform.
This world is being created as we experience it by billions of people deciding everyday
"what do I do in the interest of me"
Once we start saying
"What do I do in the interest of justice, fairness, and my own conscience"
Actions change, The world changes. And we are in control of that.

Nastatia Nietzsche / David Icke

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I know I only knew you for about a year, but in that short time I felt as though I met a sister I never knew.
I know that God has welcomed you with open arms and will take care of you.
Jabari and Marilyn you did a wonderful job helping her grow, she was a wonderful person to teach and to help.
She touched my heart in ways I can not explain with words but teaching her Muay Thai was one of my favorite things in this world.
I was working hard to get a bike so we could ride together. When I get mine I know she will still ride with me,
at least I will take the memory of her with me. Nastatia I will never forget you and I will hold my time with you close to my heart.

Tom

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Nastatia
Your time on this Earth was short, seems to me you lived your life, full speed ahead.
A smile for everyone you met along the way.
Very few people have a personality that shines through in a picture.
When I looked through them I felt I knew you and those big cats you loved so much.
Silliness, kindness and a special kind of uniqueness just shone through.
Our paths in this life were not meant to cross in person.... but you touched me from afar.
R.I.P Nastatia you will not be forgotten, but will live on in memories that will still shine.
My condolences to the loved ones you hold dear,

Sincerely, Robbie Mowles

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Nastatia is just away
Memories allow us to gather roses in the winter
Nastatia will never be forgotten
for she is just away
Nastatia will live forever in the hearts of those who cared so very much about her

Werner & Sue Carron

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My thoughts and prayers are with Jabari and Marilyn, just remember out of the body and into the presence of the Lord.
I pray the Lord comforts you both during this very difficult time.

Eric B Alexander
Technology Representative
Webster University
Old Post Office Campus

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I am having trouble trying to find the words to write, so I will just write of a time that stands out to me.
In August of 2008, I broke my leg, and I had been laying around my house for two days watching TV.
Jabari and you walked a quarter of a mile to my house so I could meet you for the first time.
I wanted you to meet my Grandparents who lived on the other side of the Lake,
But I could not drive.
You had me walk a quarter of a mile back to your house on crutches.
Then you and I got in your Kayaks, and we both paddled to my Grandparents house,
Where you met Don and Dot.
All I can do is to just keep remembering all the good times we had.

Your Riding Buddy, DJ

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Nastatia had a rare passion for life.
She made you feel happiness and joy just by being near her.
God blessed Nastatia with Marilyn and Jabari, who helped her expand on her zest for life,
and in return, Nastatia gave them all of her love and respect.

It was obvious how much she loved them, all you had to do was look at her face when she spoke about them!
I watched her once when we were at an outdoor concert, watching Marilyn move with the music.
Nastatia started laughing, and with a big smile said, "I love to watch Marilyn dance!"
Nastatia lighted this world briefly, but, boy, she sure burned bright!
She will be deeply missed by all who knew her.

Diane Freese

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Nastatia lived that’s for certain, What beautiful memories!
Jabari and Marilyn have both been on my mind at this sad time.
It is obvious Nastatia meant so much to you, and she will be deeply missed.
You have my sincerest sentiment and prayers.
God Bless you both.

Ellie Riedy

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“Failure is only postponed success as long as courage coaches ambition. The habit of persistence is the habit of victory.”

Nastatia Nietzsche / Herbert Kaufman

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Dear Nastatia
I didn't know you well, but I knew Jabari.
I know you were his life, he loved you very much. and I also know how proud he was of you.
Thank you for taking the time to put down your tools so you could take a picture of Jabari for me. And for making his "sandwich" suppers. :)
You made such a big difference in your short life, and accomplished more than anyone I've ever known, in your time here on earth.
We are all just passing through, and we will see you again one day Nastatia.
So sorry you had to go so soon, but you will never be forgotten. You will be missed by many, especially Jabari.
Condolences go out to your family and friends.

Tena

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Unfortunately I did not get to spend much time with you Nastatia,
but the time I did spend, I learned to respect you more than you will ever know.
I smile when I think of the nights we all spent in hotel rooms together on our weekend rides,
or the rides we would all take at night on the back roads.
There was something you had told me
when I started to learn how to ride that will always ring in my ears,
"There are two types of riders, the ones that have gone down, and the ones that are going down".
You were an incredible woman Nastatia, and you will never be forgotten.

Your Friend always, Carrie

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The surest way to corrupt a youth is to instruct him to hold in higher esteem those who think alike than those who think differently.

Nastatia Nietzsche / Friedrich Nietzsche

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The World is missing one of it's Angels,
your life was cut way to short Nastatia.
I can`t help but feel sorrow for Jabari and Marilyn,
I know they miss you dearly.
Rest in peace Nastatia.

Love Mario, in Venice Florida

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Nastatia

The world will notice a BIG loss without you in it.
We will miss your million dollar smile when we opened our door.
I know you will be watching over all of us.
Until we meet again....

Werner and Sue Carron

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Nastatia

I would be disgenuine not to mention the sadness, pain and anger I feel at this moment.
I know in my heart that you would rather we remember you as the shining star that you are.
Unfortunately, these darn human feelings get in the way and we have to endure the pain of losing you.
This world is going to miss you Nastatia and it hurts so much knowing that you are gone.
You left us way too soon darnit! Thank you for being my friend.
Thank you for showing us how to "Set the World on Fire" with your passion for living life to its fullest.
This is how I will remember you, but it still hurts that you're gone.....

Michael Matticola, in California

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I didn't know Nastatia but I can see she lived life to it's fullest
She was brave, she made many friends, and she's left this earth far too soon.
I understand there is a special place that awaits people like her.
She is inspiring, flawed as any of us, but not willing to let that hold her back,
motivated and motivating, a kindred soul.

Rest in peace.
Glenn

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RIP Nastatia.
Prepare space for us coz we will join you soon or later.
Cheers
Arthur, in Uganda

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To my beautiful cousin,
I will always cherish the wonderful memories of our youth.
I wish that we could have still been close as adults.
I wish my son got the chance to know you.
I wish you were still here.
I love you, and your memory will live in my heart forever.
RIP you wonderful girl.
Miss you so much.

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"Progress always involves risk, you can't steal second base and keep your foot on first."

Nastatia Nietzsche / Fredrick Wilcox

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Nastatia was a wonderful person whom I am so glad I had the privilege to know.
She had an inner beauty and intelligence that was unquestionable.
Although it is a medical practitioner's duty to educate her patient's,
Nastatia taught me as much as I could have taught her.

I send my sincerest condolences.
My thoughts and prayers will be with you, Marilyn and Jabari.

Cindy Willbrand

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We want to believe the world is understandable.
That life is fair.
That things make sense.
We want to believe that if we're careful enough,
work hard enough, try hard enough,
we and those we love will be safe from anything bad.
It's one of the biggest questions humans wrestle with--
why things sometimes aren't fair.
But even though we don't always have a neat answer to why things happen,
we do have each other...
and we have our faith.
Just a simple kind of faith that somehow, someday,
suffering will end, good will be rewarded, love will endure,
pain will be forgotten, light will scatter darkness,
and our spirits will go on.

Bob Allschied, IBM

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Nastatia, a very unique name for an extraordinarily unique young lady!
It has been my pleasure and privilege to be your agent for the past several years.
My deepest sympathy to Jabari and Marilyn.
Phyllis Trolinger
Country Financial

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Although I never met you Nastatia.
I spent a lot of time on the phone with Jabari taking care of your online presence.
I had never spoke with a customer who had so much love for his daughter.
Jabari made my day bright speaking about how very proud of you he was, and all the things you had acomplished.
It was a shock when Jabari told me about his loss.
I hope your spirit moves on to a better place, and you rest peacefully.

Brandon, from GoDaddy

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Nastatia, I just learned of your passing this morning and I’ve been grieving all day.
You were such an amazing young woman and you accomplished so much in your life.
I was just thinking about you the other day. I enjoyed having you as my student and I was always so proud of you.
You made a real difference in my life. I will never forget you.
I am having problems conveying how sad I am right now, but I know a spirit such as yours hasn’t ended.
Nastatia, when my turn comes, will you meet me at the gate?

Marilyn and Jabari, you did so much for Nastatia and I know that she loved you. I’m so sorry for your loss.

Craig Chott, Department Chair
Associate Professor, Information Systems
Saint Louis Community College, Meramec

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Marilyn and Jabari I know you are in terrible pain.
It's just so hard to believe that someone like Nastatia doesn't brighten the world now.

The last e-mail I had from Nastatia, she said this:
..."People always ask me what my goal in life is... a home, a family, a good job, a [enter something here]..."
and my response tends to throw them off. "My goal in life is to be the best person I can be."
My favorite quote is from Gandhi: "Be the change you wish to see in the world."
I fall down on this job at times, and I get a bit depressed,
but long term, I always get back up to keep fighting the good fight."...

I believe Nastatia met her goal.

You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Micaela, in Iceland.

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The light that burns twice as bright burns for half as long,
and you have burned so very, very brightly Nastatia

Jabari / Doctor Eldon Tyrell

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It is way too soon to say goodbye to you, Nastatia.
You were such a talented student of mine, and I was so happy to see you finish school and have such a successful career.
I still remember you from the Unix and C programming classes I taught.
It was such a joy to teach you because you were so eager to learn.
I followed your career and was so glad to know you were a success at AT&T.
You had such a zest for life, and packed so much in, but I wish you had been able to enjoy life for a lot longer.

Margaret Hvatum, Network Coordinator
Professor, Information Systems
Saint Louis Community College, Meramec

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I love you Nastatia. I miss you. I wish you wouldn’t have left us but I know you are fulfilling a higher purpose.
We wish you were still here. You were my HERO, my everything. I wish I had told you how I felt.
I wish I had let you know how much I needed you. You will be missed, Gorgeous.
I’ll see you later sweetie, ‘til then you better brush up on your shooting skills, I’ve got a lot to teach you still.
Just remember these words when changing a Mag or squeezing that trigger … “slow is smooth.....smooth is fast”

I love you Nastatia Nietzsche

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Marilyn,
I was very sorry to hear about Nastatia.
I can still remember when you and Nastatia came to Wisconsin and asked for a tour of the countryside in case a future move was in order.
Please know that after meeting her that day,
I thought she was a wonderfull person and certainly a unique spirit that made the Earth a better place.
I am sorry for your loss and I offer my deepest sympathy.
Peace.

Mark Booth
IBM Global Services

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Marilyn, Jabari.

I have no words to say how sorry I am.
I can't understand this things, a young and wonderful person that deserved all the best in this world.
I hope you two are ok, I'm sure that is a horrible situation lose a daughter.
But she did told me how special you could make her life and that she was living so much better and much more happier with you two.
Thank you for always taking care of her and for you guys being so loving and kind with us here.
Be sure that you 3 are very special for us and are in ours hearts.
Please, be sure I'll be always here if you need anything.
My most sincere condolences

Vanessa Fida, in Brasil

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Querida Marilyn,
I'm deeply sorry for your loss and I really would like any word I say could send your pain away. Nastatia was a very sweet girl.
Her beautiful smile and happinness will be always remembered by everyone who had the honor to know her.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and Jabari.

Tatiane Oliveira, in Brasil

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Marilyn

Sorry I only got news right now.....I'm frozen , shaking.
I got no words.....I'll keep my prayers about Nastatia and you and Jabari.

Eduardo dos Santos, in Brasil

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Marilyn,

I'm short on words to describe the sadness that struck my heart with this unfortunate news.
I cannot even imagine how you and Jabari are feeling, and I send you both my sincere condolences.
I remember a few days ago Nastatia and I had a conversation about life, and we both agreed that we should Enjoy life at the fullest,
since we wouldn't be given another chance. I'm sure she lived and died happy with the life she had,
the friends she made and the choices she took. And I'm most certain she's lying in a better place now.
I wish you all the strength you'll need and more to live through this terrible moment,
and hope to see you again to remember together the kind and unforgettable days she spent with us.
Again, my deepest sorrow and condolences.

Gustavo. in Brasil

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Mom Mare.......I don't know what to say.....I wanted to be there with you and Jabari at this so difficult time.
Me my Brazilian Mom and Talita are praying for you. You all are always in my thoughts. I LOVE YOU......Please count on me for ANYTHING...
Nastatia will be always that sweet Heart girl which We will always remember. (My Mom just showed me that Nastatia photo with that tiger).....
We still have you in our Hearts.......
GOD WILL CONFORT US
And I am sure she is in a good place.
With LOVE.

Marcelo. in Brasil

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Marilyn,

I can't say how sorry I am about Nastatia , there is not good enough words to try to express my sentiments to you and your family.
You and her will be on my prayers. Count with my if there is anything you need.

Vitor. in Brasil

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Marilyn,

I wanted to call you, but I thought you'd like to be left alone in this moment,
so I'll stick with a letter for you to read whenever you feel like doing it.

I don't even know how to start this..
You must know how sorry I am for what happened. I just couldn't believe when I was told about the accident.
It sounded so unfair that a 25 years old friend passed away.. I literally went online looking for her name
and I finally believed it when I found the police report.. It was devastating.
I will always remember the good moments we had together when you were here in Brasil.. Like we always loved to prank each other..
Like the way she learned how to pronounce "não contém glutén".. her 24th birthday party.. anyway.. everything..
God only knows how I feel now and I can't even imagine how tuff this must be for you and Jabari.
I wish I could be there for you now and if I could I really would.. But I'm sure you know you can count on us on anything you may need.
Nastatia was a hard worker.. a lovely, funny and sweet friend... I'm sure you must be as proud of her as I am.

God, I'll miss her...........................
Fabioh. in Brasil

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Marilyn and Jabari,

I have no words to express and share my sadness. I am very very sorry to hear about the loss of your children.
Wherever she rides now, will give a blessing by the great times lived together.
We are thinking of you during this difficult time. The life come and goes, our love is immortal and our friendship is forever.
I will cherish the memories of the times we spent together and hold tight to memories for comfort.
Our sincere condolences to you.

Olimpio, Lucy, Felipe and Rafael. in Brasil

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Nastatia,
Although I only knew you for a short time, you were a great co-worker and friend.
You were very enjoyable to work with and always smiling. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Emily

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Nastatia = a magical mixture of infectious exuberance and understated genius.
Jabari and Marilyn, you rescued her and you love her, We mourn with you.
Tim and Cindy.

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Nastatia was one of my favorite customers. She was always extremely kind and patient and I really enjoyed working with her.
I would like to express my condolences to her family, Jabari and Marilyn.

Cecilia

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I don't have a vision of her gone, just her in those Duck Jammie's having a good time.
This is not goodbye, so long, more like see ya later.
She was raised to do what she loved and love what she does, I will miss you Nat's.
Your are in our thoughts, our laughter, and our hearts.
God reclaimed the angel he let stay with us, look over us and keeps us safe.

Sam Dantzler

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I watched Nastatia grow up into the beautiful person that she became. I am still in disbelief that she is gone at such a young age.
Her spirit will be with all of us forever. The achievements she has made in such a short time, most people don't accomplish in a lifetime.
Jabari and Marilyn my thoughts and prayers will be with you always.

Your Friend, Lynnie

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Gonna miss you little Girlfriend ...

Barb Vogt

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We were devastated to hear the tragic news....it came as an almost cruel nightmare that was unfortunately true....
We will always remember Nastatia as the always laughing....always smiling beautiful girl she was....
she was such a hard worker who was never afraid to get dirty....tackle a new experience or adventure....
jump on a piece of equipment....taking photos....such a pleasure to be around and we loved hearing of her recent adventures....
She was always there to help a friend and give of herself and her time....We saw how happy she was with her cats....of all shapes and sizes....
her best friends in life Jabari & Marilyn....and happy with life and all that she had....she was so grateful for where she was in life....
We truly grieve your loss....but remember your smiling face....your laugh.... your gentle soul....great spirit....and brilliant mind....
We say not goodbye....but until we meet again our dear friend.
All of our love, thoughts & prayers & forever in our hearts......

Ed & Chrissie Yoder

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Nastatia,
You always made me smile when you came into the lobby. I loved practicing Spanish with you and talking about kitties and motorcycle riding.
Most of all I feel so fortunate that you were my friend. Words cannot express how sad I am right now, especially for Marilyn and Jabari.
Since I can't see you guys in person right now, I am sending my hugs through the air to you, but I hope you can stop by some time for a real hug.
Lots of love,

Jodie Broleman, Mansion House

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Nastatia
I knew you for a short time but in that short time I was amazed how smart, strong willed, outgoing and open minded you were.
You were so friendly and welcoming. Can't say I have met another like you in my life.
I am glad to have met you, I am glad we had the opportunity to talk and exchange ideas on life.
I am sorry we lost you so soon. I would have loved to have had spent more time with you.
I'm glad to see so many were touched by your warm soul and that you shared it freely!
We all should learn from this. You will never be forgotten. I will always share your memory with all that knew you.
My prayers are with you, your friends and family.

Danielle and Boehm

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When I received the news about Nastatia, I was hoping that it was only a bad rumor. I was so saddened when I found out that it was true.
I have known Nastatia for several years now. I remember a day when I was driving to my home and as I approached a side street,
a car about to enter the street I was on, it pulled out in front of me. I stopped and waved her to come on as I sat and shook my head at the driver.
It was NASTATIA We often joked about it later She was a lovely young woman. She had so much to give. Life was rough for her a while,
but she was on her way up the ladder. I'm sure she would have made her mark in life. She always lived on the edge. Not afraid of the danger.
The world has lost a beautiful and vibrant young woman. I was just talking to Jabari about her and how she was doing. He was so proud of her
as he told me of her success. I know Jabari and Marilyn are going through a bad time now. But I want them both to know they can count on me to be
there when they need someone to talk to.
God has called her home. I know he has his reason.
I will miss her dearly
Good Bye Nastatia

Ken Hicks

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Nastatia was a very beautiful person who will be missed by many. My sympathy goes out to you Jabari and Marilyn,
I know you were blessed to have her in your life and so was she to have the both of you.
I don’t think I ever crossed paths with her when she didn’t have a smile on her face.

~Lee

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Hey guys! This is Kari from Mansion House and I’m so sorry to hear about this! Nastatia was so sweet and always smiling
whenever she came in the building! She never looked down and was always busy doing something. Whenever I saw this on the internet I knew it was her
since not alot of people have her name and it sticks out. She is special and will be missed!!

Kari Katuramu
Leasing Coordinator
Mansion House Apartments

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It has been almost a year since I worked together with Nastatia on a daily basis
and five months since I have actually seen and spoken to her but that does not change how I remember her.
She was always so alive and interesting to listen to. She will be remembered for her great passion to live every day to the fullest.
I send my thoughts and prayers to her family.

Sincerely, Marcy Powers (Retired AT&T coworker)

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I am floored by our loss.
Being a new rider of motorcycles myself, Nastatia and I talked about riding and safety.
She was surely a lot more experienced at riding then I was.
So her death comes as a real surprise.
She will be missed.

Gregory

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I will never forget You and I appreciate every time I feel your presence.
I felt your spirit with me on my annual hunt this year.
I attribute the success of my hunt & the food in my freezer for this winter to your presence in my blind.
Felt like old times, we hunt, we eat, Thank You.

I Miss You.

Brian

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Pain is Weakness Leaving the Body

Jabari

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